Curiosity is a Sin Sometimes.

Issues sprout whenever. Issues are

Sick and Idle

Feeling weak and uneasy, where do you want to be? I want to be

Football and Crying

Would you believe if I tell you I just cried while watching a movie about football?

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Confusion

Having bizarre thoughts

My heart is palpitating in confusion

I wonder why

This odd feeling should not prevail now.

I know I can stand alone without needing and wanting anyone

This feeling is crucial

My grip is starting to loosen up.

Why?

I’m confused..

My plans are

September 28, 08-Sunday

My eyes are closing again after waking up 2 or 3 hours ago. Even though I love sleeping so much, I realized that this attitude may become my downfall.

Setting my goals and appreciating what I have now make me think of how lucky I am in this world. Thank You God for giving me such a wonderful life.

Don’t get me wrong. My life is not as perfect as everyone would imagine. I have my troubles and anxiety stories as well, I just tend to carry all my blunders and accept it as it is. I believe acceptance is the tool of learning.

Today, I realized how lucky I am to have a very loving family. I really thank the Lord God for giving me such wonderful, caring and loving people to surround me. If not for them and for God, I would have probably fallen off on the grave of despair.

Let me use this blog to say thank You to You, my Lord God. Without you Lord, I am not me. Thank You Father for always guiding me and my family. Though You give us trials, I believe it is Your way to teach us wisdom and to teach us the way of life. I know Lord that You will not give us occurrences that would harm us. Father, I am your child who seeks for your guidance and protection. Enlighten me and show me the right path to You, my Lord. Always guide and protect my family also from harm Lord and please help us reach our dreams. With You Father, I know nothing is impossible. Thank You Father for everything. I love You more than anything in this world. Thank You Father for the life You have given me and for making me feel contended to the things I have and will have. I Love You!

Goodnight.

September 27,08

I never thought I would be very irritated a while ago in class. I woke up late, and went to school late because I went out the night before. Sorry, I couldn’t help it. I hate Saturday classes.

Anyway, as much as I tried to be responsible enough to wake up early and be in class on time today, I cannot help, but tell myself.. “What the? Later na… One more hour then I will wake up and get ready for school.”

I know.. I seem to not care, but I do. I have my reasons why I didn’t try to make it in class. It is not because of hangover or something. PROMISE! I just didn’t feel like staying up the whole night and going to school without any sleep like I always do. I didn’t want Sir Aarol to think that I’m always wasted. I’d rather be “okay” in class, than say anything that has nothing to do in class. Oh diba? I seem to be a mess every Saturday, which sucks! I don’t like it..

I had a very irritating morning and afternoon. Maybe, this is because I didn’t get a chance to sleep for more than 10 hours this week. I hate it whenever we have make up classes or whenever someone wakes me up for no appropriate reason.

This morning, as soon as I opened my eyes, I already knew somehow that I will not be in a good mood the whole day. I was right. After I took a bath, my eyebrows were already near each other, and my wrinkles were visible.

Inside the car, I realized how much I didn’t want to go to school. I hate the fact that as much as I try to smile and be wacky, I will just fail. Maybe if people in the school were all noisy, I could have given them some slack. I’m pretty insane for having this kind of attitude the whole day.

In school, I was marked absent for my first subject, still.. my teacher made me report. I remember while I was in front and discussing accounting, I felt slow as if I am on some sort of substance. I felt as if I am hearing the waves of the sea. Natural delusional effect.

After the Financial Accounting class, we had to be ready for Operations Management exam. Cramming time mode as always..

Anyway, school was dull. Period.

Dismissal time, I was already in a hurry to go home. I had plans for the night, but I ended up cancelling everything to rest and to have my own space of silence. Sorry friends, I tend to be idle sometimes. My feet didn’t seem to be in the mood, plus it was my driver’s rest day. I cannot drive so holla… I assumed and assured that today is my rest day.

I love sleeping. The irritableness attitude resides when I get to rest and sleep. So…. Zzzzzzz..

Friday Night. Sept 26

I haven’t seen my batchmates back in highschool for years. It is a good thing I didn’t have class last friday to be able to go out and drink. I missed chilling down south, drinking and singing. I can say “its been a while”. I missed the south and the steady vibes so much.

Here are some pictures with my batchmates. I really had a great night with them.

Sorry: Text Message

I really don’t like meddling with other people’s dilemma or business. I’m just not the type of person, unless I am part of it. I’m pretty not sure if what i did was right, but I know it is for someone I love.

Texting someone my unsolicited advice seems to

Immaturity

Stop the crazy act Ikay. You’ve been anticipating something and that is not good. You are just confusing yourself. You are becoming so child-ish. Eeew. How immature. — Yes, I have been telling this to myself for days now. The thoughts that are going through my head seem

If I Tell You I Love You…

Reflecting is an art where your mind and your heart sees the reality of pain and happiness. Reflecting sets your mind and heart to an equilibrium state, it is as if you are meditating. It perishes skeptical questions and insights (e.i. What If yada yada).

PAIN.

I know pain is inevitable, but have you ever