I feel as if depression is overcoming the joy in heart. Setting a goal once more, I’m thinking how i’ll start all over again… and this is how i wanted to start it.. By being with God first. I remember a verse in the bible which says ” Seek first the kingdom of God and everything will follow.”. I’m trying to see what is inside my heart, but then I realized how our heart is deceitful above all. So again, I concluded that I should run to God and put my trust in Him.
Bitter-sweet reality. I’m in love and i am loved, but jealousy at times or most of the time brings out my insecurities which could cloud my senses and emotions.. even my way of thinking. This reality is PAINFUL.
So.. what defines pain? I realized that pain is defined by a lot of things such as love, hate, freedom, success, and more.. which damages oneself at first. But come to think of it.. you only feel pain when you actually care…
Happiness is a gift from God and I think pain is as well. Why? It is because when you are happy you thank God for whatever reason and when you are in pain, you seek and talk to God for comfort and protection. I believe that an opportunity to actually have a conversation with God is a gift. It is not everyday we get to practice this — conversing with God.
