Waiting..

I never thought that I would be engaged in waiting… I keep waiting all day and all night..

This experience is making me think whether I should be doing my internship in another country or not. It makes me think so bad that it makes me sad.

Morning I wake up early to see if I get a message in facebook from him, or whether he is online in skype. At night, I still do the same thing and during the afternoon I keep checking the time. I feel like as if i’m obsessed. I feel as if I don’t have life anymore. But something struck me. Looking at myself once more I realized that I do this because I miss him.. Unlike other people who talk to their someone for more than one hour via skype or phone because they are far from each other, I only get a chance talking to him for about 5 minutes or less and after that i have no idea anymore. Not even a single message. It sounds as if I am ranting on this. Haaay.. It just makes me really sad because it makes me think of things such as “What if” I have to leave the country for more than 6 months. Is this going to be the same scenario. It scares me and I dislike it. It seems like I have to sacrifice something. I hate this feeling.

Above all these though, one thing is clear, this waiting, it teaches me how to be patient and understanding. I couldn’t do this without God. I know that my mind will be clear on things I have to do in the future. I believe it is just a matter of time. God’s time and will. I love Jesus.

Despite my trouble of waiting in vain, I realized that whatever this is, God has stored something better. At least now i’ll understand other people. Why people sacrifice their sleep and even their time.

Knock knock knock.. Time for me to leave the house and be with friends.. He’ll be home soon anyway and that one I should look forward to. Ofcourse, I’ll be the one to get him in the airport! It excites me! Thank you Jesus!

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