Emo mode

For five months I’ve been stuck for a term not intellectually growing. This is the sad reality of my life as a student.

I remember those days when I used to go to school ready to grasp new ideas… when I know I was growing…when I know that there is a career ahead of me.. I guess those days were the first few terms of my freshman year.. the first few months where I have been exposed to business and reality.. No one will believe it, I used to enjoy school, sitting and listening attentively..

Right now, I am in my last year of college ( supposedly last term and about to graduate, but school is doing more magic ).  Sad reality, I still have no idea how it works in the real world. Its just that I am not growing.. I am not really learning things the way I should be learning it.

Many times I tried to be as tackles as possible… especially when talking to the management to state what the school is lacking.. At times, they will consider my plead, but most of the time—they will as much as possible make me the bad dude. Maybe that is their SOP -complaint handling.

Emotionally and Physically tired. I’d rather not be in school. School makes me wrathful. I am passionately starting to hate school.

Daydreaming: What would my life be as a student  if I entered La Salle or Ateneo? What would my life be as a student  if I listened to my aunts and cousins?  Haaay… The agony.. At times.. well most of the time, i wish I would have not hardened myself. Maybe I won’t be unhappy with my education. oooh.. the agony..

Apart from pain is JOY..

Enough said.. I gained new siblings.. Siblings I found in the middle of my anguish life as a student.

Joelle – my never present sister, who makes me miss her more than she would ever know. my very mysterious friend ( I tried to observe her more than anyone in school, it took time for me to know her). my beloved girl friend. jealous.

Joe B -  my youngest sister. i miss her so much whenever I see her, I always catch myself smiling. She’s such a joy. a very beautiful person.

Hadeel – my very emotional friend. always hyper and present. a very loyal friend. a sister to me. I wonder when she’ll sleep at my house.. i miss her. you are so near yet so far my gay friend. she lives 15 minutes away from my place.

Jasmin – my beloved sister. i do not know where to start.. i just know i love her so much and i am very proud of her. i found silence in her… i love it whenever we just sit beside each other and not talk.

Tricia – queen dead. my travel buddy. i have no idea how it started but i am just so glad i met her. she has the most remarkable comments– when i sleep, i’m dead.. Ms. Hopeless Romantic. I’ve never known anyone who is so into the whole prince charming story. Shhh… she has this wedding planner book that kinda freaks me out. brooo.. she’s not even 20 yrs old yet. ahaha.. but these are the things that actually made me love her.

Krystal – perky. ms president, the traveler. I love it when i see her in school. I also love hearing her insights about things. Her thoughts matter a lot. One of the few people I know who can really decide. I look up to Krystal, she’s like my big sister. I love her.

Michelle – my sister. my friend. someone i can really trust. i miss her and i bet she misses me too. yes, i am that sure. i thank this girl for a lot of things. I cannot specify it here, but i know she knows what i am talking about. I am just so happy to have met her. happy to gain a sister like her.

Jay – my brother. a good friend. a role-model- yeah.. he is. a big brother to me, just don’t consider the height. peace.

Again… Apart from pain is Joy… I really thank the Lord for giving me such wonderful people.

…to be continued…