Confusion

Having bizarre thoughts

My heart is palpitating in confusion

I wonder why

This odd feeling should not prevail now.

I know I can stand alone without needing and wanting anyone

This feeling is crucial

My grip is starting to loosen up.

Why?

I’m confused..

My plans are not going as I planned it.

I cannot just let go

I need to remain my grip

I need to hold on to my perspectives in life

I can do this..

I know I can manage.

Falling for someone..

It is pathetic..

……

How can I fall for someone who is so “FAR yet so near” *yeah, the other way around*. Doode.. This is confusing. I am not even ready to date anyone.. What should I do? What a kiddo dilemma to have, right? What a shameful reality. I am such a kiddo when it comes to these kind of stuff. Shet. I guess.. Ignoring is the best solution, but how when he is always there… when I run to him whenever I am happy and sad.. How?? I feel messed up.. Confused.